here's wishing all of you a blessed new year that's fruitful, along with good health and loving relationships:)
love trulylaughter uncontrollablynever forget what made you smile
i really love you guys=)
remember, life is short, break the rules, reach for at least 1 star
dont hold back now, all those times You've brought me through
i'll be a fool to give up cause the goal is near br>
yawn... i'm really really exhausted now... actually i wanted to blog ytd!! but i fell aslp on the table instead while waiting for the pics to load=S and while i was smsing my friend=S
ya fun-o-rama was extreme! okay firstly, i overslept! haha so typical! luckily chun called me up and woke me=) haha the first thing i noticed was how bright the sky was! yup so i rushed all the way to sch~ but i still reached before 9=)
yup the stall was alr done up really nicely!! fishes were in the pool and all=) so after funorama was declared open, chun and i wandered arnd cause we werent on shift yet.. haha just bought like strawberry bubble tea and other foodstuff.. didn't get to look around too much.. went back to the stall, and it was like... totally packed!! and we had 2 booth's space!! haha somehow=S and luckily too! cause there awere just so many pple! ya so in the end, it was like no mre shifts.. just helped out all the way till 4 plus, counting timings and all till my throat got sore! ya it was so so popular, we had to reduce the time when we added goldfishes, and 1000 fishes were gone by 12 plus=S didn't even have to use to guessing game! ya and the plastic bags ran out too!=S... haha was like super tired.. and had a really bad headache.. guess it was from the lack of slp, and the hot sun!=)
okay martin and liy came down, so arund 4 when i took my break i went around with them to spend my coupons..bought alot of funny stuff la=) ya and went back to busy again... eunice and the others came too... but i was so busy i didnt even know... until sarah came to tell me she saw them.. sigh i feel really really bad...and i didn't really get to hang arnd with darren too! i know he made an effort to come, cause he couldn't at first! =S sigh i'm so so sry peeps..
ya so all in all... it was a pretty exhausting day.. really busy and all.. i think it's funner than jj's love fiesta last yr, for those who came anw.. for pple at booths, not so much.. cause last yr i had plenty of time to visit other stalls and all... ya so we packed up and left pretty late... and i lost my fav pair of silver slippers!! i think someone dumped it acc... sigh...
okay i'm gg to blog abt sth close to my heart that's really boring and not nice at all, so... time to click that back button or sth ok?=)
okok so tdy, it was svc early in the morn, and i went to mug at cb after... with cons and ian... was so super tired, i just slept and slept and slept... and i was really grouchy... so when jon called me abt the cgm stuff, i was kinda irritated with the change in plans... and junrong came on the phone and scolded me... sigh....i'm so so tired of cg actually.. many many times i feel like just quitting cg... like... what's the point? i don't see it helping change my life,m except take up a whole bunch of time, cause they're always so draggy and longwinded=S other cgs are really straight to the point! ours is like so... long and draggy.. and always delayed...
and i really didnt want to sign up for ministry this yr cause of A's.. it's like... i end sch so late, and i have tuition and i go for svc and cell, and i have to mug... i hardly have time for myself alr!! much less go for ministry... but junrong signed me up=S sigh... i'm gg to be so exhausted...
feel kinda lonely these few days... cause... like ian says, i'm just a social butterfly.. don't have any real close friends... those who are close.. are really busy.. like attached, or just busy with sch stuff and all... liike the closest pple to me now..are my family... if i didn't have them, i'd probably br feeling so lost now... okay feeling so emo now...
ya i guess... it's cause i've been to busy with sch stuff and all.. i don't get the chance to catch up with my brsties, esp since we're in diff schs... and pple from my sch... are so separated... like... close at sch, apart after sch... and it'ss like.... i'm feeling so empty inside... and i can't see my purpose in life.. junrong is right, i can't shine for God or be a tetimony... my results are horrendous, and i don't have many strong relationships in my life, except for my family... and i feel like a failure sometimes, cause no matte how hard i try, things just don't seem to work out... i'm really worried cause terms are coming up... i can't afford to do like last yr... but i feel so so tired sometimes... and... i realized i don't have a single person to talk to abt my sadness... cause either we're not close, or they're really busy and i don't want to bug them with my silly problems.. so i blog.. cause few people read so it's safe i guess... and i always mug outside, so i only see my family at night... so i feel really lonely most of the time... and i'm thinking of quitting cg too... cause... i don't feel close to anyone there at all.. and... i don't want that extra pressure... and i feel left out when i see others getting so into God's presence, and i'm feeling like an empty vessel...
emptiness and loneliness... that deep well i have inside that weighs my heart down...
for those of you who read till this point, i'm so so sry if i brought up sadness in you..